I’m going to start by saying that from this point on, I’m going to have a lot of my opinions in this post. It’s an opinion. You don’t have to agree, you don’t have to disagree, if you don’t like it then don’t keep reading, if you feel the need to comment something nasty it will be deleted. I get that everyone has their own opinions and their own experiences and that is what makes getting to know people so great. No one is going to be the same and I am no exception to that rule. However, if you are offended, then do me a favor and instead of telling me what a shitty person I am, just click away from my site and don’t return.
For many of you, this will come as a shock. I have a child. An amazing little girl who recently turned five. For those of you just finding out now, surprise! Somehow I was able to keep it secret from you for over five years which probably means we weren’t very close to begin with AND odds are I didn’t trust you with that information. “Well that’s a rude and strange thing to say”. Why yes, yes it is.
For years, I didn’t want anyone to find out I had a child. Was I ashamed? Well in a way yes, and in a way no. I was pretty young when I had her and I didn’t like the assumptions that came with being a young mom. We are treated differently from other mom’s and it sucks. I’m the youngest mom in my child’s class, not by much, but enough where it makes being around for anything really weird. Part of it was an overprotection thing. For a long time, I was paranoid about all the things that could hurt her and anyone who saw her picture who might use it for themselves. I was sickened to think that there could be people out there who would want to hurt her, use her against me, steal her from me, anything. I guess that’s where that stereotype that mom’s always think that you are dead. Now I get it.
As I’ve grown older, I have realized that I can’t protect her from everything. While it is up to my judgement who can be in her life right now, it won’t always be that way. She will have to stand on her own and the sooner I can accept that, the better I can be with her as I get older. Or so I hope. There is no book out there telling you how to do things or how to run your life. There are suggestions. So if that’s the case, how can you raise your child? To the best of your ability, that’s how.
If you as a mom have had doubts about yourself, or if you just need reassurance, then remember that you are trying the best you can. Even if you’re not, it’s okay. We all have days where we can’t be supermom. We are going to yell, scream cry, right there along with our kids and sometimes that’s just how it’s going to be. The only thing you can do is to go to sleep and wake up the next day aiming to be better than the last. We are all just wafting through this and together, we can hopefully bring our kids out on the other side okay. Keep your head up, you got this.